3 years it hs been since i gave dat 10th board xams... Probably, d only cls in wich i realy wrkd hard.... Bt sometimes it occurs to me,, it'd hav been btr to hv studied a li'l less.....

Every child giving hs 10th boards mst b wel aware f d fact dat hw mch scared n nervous v r b4 dat frst xam... Itz jst d 1st dat scares... Ftr retrnin 4m xaminatn hall,, v surely say,"huh!!! Faltu itni mehnat ki".....

1st march, 2007... Jst a day b4 mah social studies xam... Dat ws easy 4 me,, history interests me n 4 rest i thank my teacher... Back in cls 6th i developd ds tendncy f makin self notes,.. I still do dat.... N 1 thng i cn guarantee,, dey r btr dan ny teacher's....
So it ws jst a day b4... I knew everythng. Bt smthng kept knockin my head,, revise dat, datz important.... I ws cnfused n a thousand tyms nervous... 1 thng i hate abt myself, strtd showin up... Tears....
Dat ws around 7 dat eve... My mom got worried,, bt shez d bst n took me 4 a walk,, bt dint utter a wrd bout xam... She jst drove my mind away.,. Love her 4 dat.. Slept by 9...
2nd march,. The big day.. The word datz no less dan a ghost usd by teachers to haunt us,, stood ryt in frnt of me... Woke up at 7, got ready, prayd to god, "let me do no mistake in dis..". Set off to xam centre..
It ws 10.35,, i jst had a nyc luk at all d questns n told myself,"i'd get a hundred in dis".. Startd writin.. It ws 12, n i was done... Nthng unanswerd, no doubts... Sure abt a century, i relaxd rest f d tym... Bell rang n i set my foot out of dat room... I jst wntd to reach my home n tel maa dat it ws gr8... N datz wht i told her wen i got home ftr half n hour... Happy end to d day..

Nxt was a big one.. Maths.. My sbject.. It wont b too big to say dat i ws mathematician f my cls, evr since i ws a kid.. And after all,, i solvd 8 diff books cmpletely,, god knws hw many tyms.. Alone ncert wud count up to a least f 10..
Dere ws an half yearly n 3 preboards.. I scored 99 thrice n a 100 in dat final pre... I cn stil challenge any1, gv me a questn f 10th std n i'm surely goin to solve it..
Bt dat day, 8th march was goin to b a li'l different...
7th march'07.. Again in d eve i ws wid maa on terrace.. I told her dat if i cmplete my paper in 2.5 hrs,, i'm sure to get ful...
8th june'07.. I got up at 7, got ready n prayed to got "when i return, jst lemme tel my father dat it was going to b a 100"..
10.35 am, i again had d same thng in mind.. Its 100... I strtd taking up prblms... Dnt knw wht struck my mind bt i did it real slow.. It was 12, half way through,, 13 questns still left including all those 5 marks questn... I pickd up pace.. Nxt thng i remembr is dat i ws tying up my sheets n invigilator ws ryt dere in front of me.. I took a total f 8 xtra sheets alongwith that 50 page main sheet.... It ws d invigilator who tied it up fr me,, my hands were highly unsteady to tie sheets up... My mind lost cntrol f my hands...
Aftr 5 min,, regaining cntrol my mind xclaimd,"yipeee!! I did it.. 100.. Yeah....".. Got home n told dad wht i wntd to....
Past lunch, i took up d paper to take a look at it, smthng i wud hv nvr done if it were to b a nrmal day....Unfrtunately, i did it... My eyes stuck on dat income tax questn.. I solvd dat again.. Seein d nswr i jst calculatd, my body shook 4m head to toe,.. It ws different 4m wht i did in xam hall.. I did it again,, same result.. Nw it ws tym 4 my eyes to react,, dey leaked... Di told me dat dnt wry, u got it ryt in nswr sheet.. Bt i nw knew,, my dreams were shatterd.. I figured out my mistake.. Smthng dat a 2nd cls kid wud've done correctly.. I calculated a subtrctn f 8 from 14 as 8. (14-8= 8).. People wud col it silly mstake,, i wud col it destiny..
Bt i cudnt even blame fate 4 dat,, god did wht i askd hm dat mrning....
Bt nw wht,,, i kept crying 3 to 6... My di continuously consoling me,,.. Bt wht ws i supposd to do xcept crying... Dad came home at 6.. Ma told him, i ws cryin uncntrolably... He too told me whtevr hs been done cant b undone so jst prepare 4 d nxt....
That ws d frst tym in my lyf dat i cudnt sleep d whole nyt bein on my bed...

Nxt mrning my sis prepared an actn plan 4 d nxt xam on 14th,, hindi.. Another feature of my studies... I always had plans ready... Bt lyk all others,, i seldom followd d schedule....

In hindi, grammar ws my strong point. I cud even confuse my teacher, may b it was coz she ws too old to remember anythng... My literature was gud, but i nvr evr gave a look to questns... It alwaz have been stories dat fascinate me... I loved reading dem.. I still do b4 sleepin....

Nw toking abt dis paper... My regular hindi teacher neena ma'm took an year off due to sum medical problem...So another teacher took over.. And she ws too old to teach,, i hd a btr hold ovr d language dan hers.... I wasnt worried about grammar, jst dose literature answers bothered me.. My overwhelmin emotional answrs alwaz overshot d limit....
14th march'07.. I askd god to take care of my literature.. Again on seeing d paper i foretold, itz beyond 95.. Each n every questn ws familiar to me...Bt dis tym i ws amazed at my memory... I cudnt find nswr in my head of 7 single word answers in grammar... My heart sank... If it wud hv been an year ago, i wud've answrd dem lyk it ws my paper... My literature answers were all pitch perfect... Without overshooting d wrd limit, cmplete in itself.....
I came out f dat cls ftr 3 hours n suddnly 3 answrs crashed into my head 4m sumwhere.... Rest 4, i rememberd when i met my frenz...Anothr misery